I lost a student. Not one death shocked me more. I do not ask for another one, however. My friends, stay healthy.

I had a few weeks short of a quarter but still I think I failed to fulfill my duties as effectively as planned. Did he learn anything? Did he enjoy the activities and discussions?  Have I mentioned something that inspired him or got him into thinking? Did I appear approachable enough?

I set my goals in a manner that they would be evaluated by the end of the school year. I did not expect that you will die this soon. That sucks. I want to know, understand and help you all. I feel that I wasn't given enough time. But it's no excuse.

It should not matter. Whether I left an impression or not is the preoccupation of my vanity. It shouldn't matter that I'm merely one of the teachers that attempted to provide you an education on a school subject, or that I'm merely one of the many random figures you encountered in your very short life. In your own way you have left a mark on me as a teacher, a person.

It sucks. You're too young. I can't help but recall how I was 10 years ago as a second year high school student. Life pretty much went downhill after my adolescence but it can't be denied that I had all the potential to do well. You do have that much potential too, well, you did. Helpless people like us should've gone instead.

But lucky you. I can imagine how hospitalization burdened you. Now you're free. You make me want to believe in afterlife because it'd be such a waste. The burden is on us who are left behind. We have to subject ourselves to miss your presence, and we masochistically oblige because it makes us value our relationships with one another. And we have to move on. We have to study, work and live for the sake of living, because we all need each other, to continue living, just because we have to. You don't have to get sucked into this vicious illogical cycle anymore.

I have a pile of papers to correct, questions to create, reports to finish. It sucks that you have to go on a week like this. It sucks that you have to go, period. But feel free, for one last time, to interrupt my preoccupied mind.

Currently listening to: reign of love - coldplay

There is nothing worth looking forward to if today is an indication of things to come. I'm cool. Let us just surprise everyone.

I just wrote probably the most dramatic stuff, saying goodbye to the world and shit because I am dying soon and clicked on the wrong thing. All is lost. What a stupid way to say it's over. I'll never be able to repeat that. Sucks to be me.

I did not want this to be a rant.

best of 2008: last.fm (all based on user scrobbles)

10 new artists 10. santogold 09. does it offend you, yeah? 08. bon iver 07. foals 06. the last shadow puppets 05. katy perry 04. fleet foxes 03. sara bareilles 02. the ting tings 01. mgmt

10 albums 10. sigur ros - með suð í eyrum við spilum endalaust 09. jack johnson - sleep throught the static 08. hot chipi - made in the dark 07. death cab for cutie - narrow stairs 06. the kooks - konk 05. the ting tings - we started nothing 04. nine inch nails - ghosts i-iv 03. portishead - third 02. mgmt - oracular spectacular 01. coldplay - viva la vida or death and all his friends

10 tracks 10. mgmt - kids 09. coldplay - strawberry swing 08. coldplay - 42 07. katy perry - i kissed a girl 06. coldplay - cemeteries of london 05. coldplay - life in technicolor 04. mgmt - electric feel 03. mgmt - time to pretend 02. coldplay - violet hill 01. coldplay - viva la vida

rateyourmusic 50 best albums of 2008 (based on user ratings) 50. 16 horsepower - live march 2001 49. david gilmour - live in gdansk 48. raphael saadiq - the way i see it 47. the tallest man on earth - shallow grave 46. aimee mann - @#%&*! smilers 45. belle and sebastian - the bbc sessions 44. the black keys - attack and release 43. have a nice life - deathconsciousness 42. mar de grises - draining the waterheart 41. the drones - havilah 40. esbjorn svensson trio - leukocyte 39. in mourning - shrouded divine 38. beardfish - sleeping in traffic: part two 37. bohren & der club of gore - dolores 36. randy newman - harps and angels 35. sigur ros - með suð í eyrum við spilum endalaust 34. coldworld - melancholie2 33. matt elliot - howling songs 32. septic flesh - communion 31. enslaved - vertebrae 30. fennesz - black sea 29. the raconteurs - consolers of the lonely 28. nick cave and the bad seeds - dig, lazarus, dig!!! 27. secret chiefs 3 - xaphan: book of angels volume 9 26. joose keskitalo - joose keskitalo ja kolmas maailmanpalo 25. colour haze - all 24. grouper - dragginga dead deer up a hill 23. m83 - saturdays = youth 22. cut copy - in ghost colours 21. between the buried and me - colors_live 20. lindsey buckingham - gift of screws 19. elbow - the seldom seen kid 18. nomo - ghost rock 17. sun kill moon - april 16. cult of luna - eternal kingdom 15. skepticism - alloy 14. erykah badu - new amerykah part 1 (4th world war) 13. flight of the conchords - flight of the conchords 12. amon amarth - twilight of the thunder god 11. cynic - traced in air 10. gojira - the way of all flesh 09. burst - lazarus bird 08. johann johannsson - fordlandia 07. toumani diabate - the mande variations 06. bar kokhba - lucifer: book of angels volume 10 05. opeth - watershed 04. fleet foxes - fleet foxes 03. tv on the radio - dear science 02. deerhunter - microcastle / weird era cont. 01. portishead - third

pitchfork top 50 albums (writers' votes) 50. ponytail - ice cream spiritual 49. crystal stilts - alight of night 48. high places - high places 47. the tallest man on earth - shallow grave 46. beach house - devotion 45. lykke li - youth novels 44. marnie stern - this is it and i am it and you are it and so is that and he is it and she is it and it is it and that is that 43. shearwater - rook 42. bonnie "prince" billy - lie down in the lights 41. david byrne and brian eno - everything that happens will happen today 40. the very best - esau mwamwaya & radioclit are the very best 39. times new viking - rip it off 38. the bug - london zoo 37. grouper - dragginga dead deer up a hill 36. wale - the mixtape about nothing 35. girl talk - feed the animals 34. arthur russell - love is overtaking me 33. frightened rabbit - midnight organ fight 32. nick cave & the bad seeds - dig, lazarus, dig!!! 31. fennesz - black sea 30. los campesinos! - hold on now, youngster... 29. the hold steady - stay positive 28. flying lotus - los angeles 27. max tundra - parallax error beheads you 26. atlas sound - let the blind lead those who can see but cannot feel 25. titus andronicus - the airing of grievances 24. gang gang dance - saint dymphna 23. hot chip - made in the dark 22. santogold - santogold 21. kanye west - 808s and heartbreak 20. fuck buttons - street horrrsing 19. the walkmen - you & me 18. the mae shi - hlllyh 17. fucked up - the chemistry of common life 16. vivian girls - vivian girls 15. crystal castles - crystal castles 14. air france - no way down 13. erykah badu - new amerykah part one (4th world war) 12. lindstrom - where you go i go too 11. lil wayne - tha carter iii 10. dj/rupture - uproot 09. hercules and love affair - hercules and love affair 08. m83 - saturdays = youth 07. vampire weekend - vampire weekend 06. tv on the radio - dear science 05. deerhunter - microcastle / weird era cont. 04. cut copy - in ghost colours 03. no age - nouns 02. portishead - third 01. fleet foxes - sun giant ep / fleet foxes

pitchfork top 100 tracks 100 Girls - "Hellhole Ratrace" 99 Final Fantasy - "The Butcher" 98 The Magnetic Fields - "The Nun's Litany" 97 Buraka Som Sistema (Feat. M.I.A. and DJ Znobia) - "Sound of Kuduro" 96 Empire of the Sun - "Walking on a Dream" 95 Friendly Fires (Feat. Au Revoir Simone) - "Paris (Aeroplane Remix)" 94 WHY? - "Fatalist Palmistry" 93 Atlas Sound - "River Card" 92 Born Ruffians - "I Need a Life (Four Tet Remix)" 91 Jamie Lidell - "All I Wanna Do" 90 Sic Alps - "Message From the Law" 89 Ponytail - "Celebrate the Body Electric (It Came From an Angel)" 88 Low Motion Disco - "Things Are Gonna Get Easier" 87 The Veronicas - "Untouched" 86 Los Campesinos! - "Sweet Dreams, Sweet Cheeks" 85 Osborne - "16th Stage" 84 Beach House - "Gila" 83 Titus Andronicus - "Upon Viewing Brueghel's 'Landscape With the Fall of Icarus'" 82 Solange - "Sandcastle Disco" 81 Love Is All - "Wishing Well" 80 The Bug (Feat. Warrior Queen) - "Poison Dart" 79 Ida Maria - "Oh My God" 78 Frightened Rabbit - "The Modern Leper" 77 Telepathe - "I Can't Stand It" 76 Justice - "DVNO (Radio Edit)" 75 Little Boots - "Stuck on Repeat" 74 Wale - "The Kramer" 73 Goldfrapp - "A&E" 72 Fleet Foxes - "Blue Ridge Mountains" 71 Sigur Rós - "Gobbledigook" 70 Rihanna - "Don't Stop the Music" 69 Portishead - "The Rip" 68 Four Tet - "Ribbons" 67 Young Jeezy (Feat. Kanye West) - "Put On" 66 Lykke Li - "Dance, Dance, Dance" 65 Max Tundra - "Which Song" 64 The Whitest Boy Alive - "Golden Cage (Fred Falke Remix)" 63 The Very Best - "Kamphopo" 62 The Tough Alliance -  Lucky" 61 Q-Tip - "Gettin' Up" 60 Crystal Castles - "Courtship Dating" 59 The Dodos - "Fools" 58 Annie - "I Know UR Girlfriend Hates Me" 57 High Places - "From Stardust to Sentience" 56 Vampire Weekend - "Oxford Comma" 55 Usher (Feat. Young Jeezy) - "Love in This Club" 54 Lykke Li - "Little Bit" 53 Be Your Own Pet - "Becky" 52 Ricardo Villalobos - "Enfants (Chants)" 51 TV on the Radio - "Golden Age" 50 Invisible Conga People - "Cable Dazed" 49 Jay Reatard - "Always Wanting More" 48 Spiritualized - "Soul on Fire" 47 Alphabeat - "Fascination" 46 M83 - "Graveyard Girl" 45 Antony and the Johnsons - "Shake That Devil" 44 Hot Chip - "One Pure Thought" 43 Kelley Polar - "Entropy Reigns (In the Celestial City)" 42 Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - "Dig!!! Lazarus, Dig!!!" 41 No Age - "Sleeper Hold" 40 T.I. [ft. Rihanna] - "Live Your Life" 39 Kanye West - "Love Lockdown" 38 TV on the Radio - "DLZ" 37 Big Boi [ft. Raekwon and André 3000] - "Royal Flush" 36 Arthur Russell - "I Couldn't Say It to Your Face" 35 Shearwater - "The Snow Leopard" 34 Fuck Buttons - "Sweet Love for Planet Earth" 33 Animal Collective - "Street Flash" 32 Crystal Castles - "Untrust Us" 31 Aeroplane [ft. Kathy Diamond] - "Whispers"  30 MGMT - "Time to Pretend" 29 Vampire Weekend - "M79" 28 No Age - "Eraser" 27 T.I. - "No Matter What"  26 The Walkmen - "In the New Year" 25 The Hold Steady - "Constructive Summer" 24 Gang Gang Dance - "House Jam" 23 Beyoncé - "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" 22 Santogold - "Lights Out" 21 Hercules and Love Affair - "Hercules' Theme"  20 The Juan MacLean - "Happy House" 19 Vivian Girls - "Where Do You Run To" 18 Women - "Black Rice" 17 Wiley - "Wearing My Rolex" 16 The Mae Shi - "Run to Your Grave" 15 Amadou and Mariam - "Sabali" 14 Lil Wayne - "A Milli" 13 Kanye West - "Flashing Lights"  12 Cut Copy - "Out There on the Ice" 11 David Byrne and Brian Eno - "Strange Overtones" 10 Estelle [ft. Kanye West] - "American Boy" 09 Portishead - "Machine Gun" 08 Air France - "Collapsing at Your Doorstep" 07 Cut Copy - "Hearts on Fire" 06 Deerhunter - "Nothing Ever Happened" 05 M83 - "Kim & Jessie" 04 Santogold - "L.E.S. Artistes" 03 Hot Chip - "Ready for the Floor" 02 Fleet Foxes - "White Winter Hymnal" 01 Hercules and Love Affair - "Blind"

rolling stone top 50 albums of 2008 50 No Age - Nouns 49 Hot Chip - Made In The Dark 48 Raphael Saadiq - The Way I See It 47 Of Montreal - Skeletal Lamping 46 The Academy Is... - Fast Times at Barrington High 45 Be Your Own Pet - Get Awkward 44 The Raconteurs - Consolers of the Lonely 43 Nas - Untitled 42 David Byrne and Brian Eno - Everything That Happens Will Happen Today 41 AC/DC - Black Ice 40 Jonas Brothers - A Little Bit Longer 39 Taylor Swift - Fearless 38 Ra Ra Riot - The Rhumb Line 37 Nine Inch Nails - The Slip 36 The Hold Steady - Stay Positive 35 Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Dig, Lazarus, Dig!!! 34 Stephen Malkmus - Real Emotional Trash 33 Ne-Yo - Year Of The Gentleman 32 Jamey Johnson - The Lonesome Song 31 MGMT - Oracular Spectacular 30 Duffy - Rockferry 29 Bon Iver - For Emma, Forever Ago 28 The Knux - Remind Me in Three Days... 27 Brian Wilson - That Lucky Old Sun 26 Mudcrutch - Mudcrutch 25 The Magnetic Fields - Distortion 24 Girl Talk - Feed The Animals 23 Conor Oberst - Conor Oberst 22 Jackson Browne - Time the Conquerer 21 Kaiser Chiefs - Off With Their Heads 20 Kings of Leon - Only By The Night 19 Erykah Badu - New Amerykah, Part 1 (4th World War) 18 Lucinda Williams - Little Honey 17 B.B. King - One Kind Favor 16 Randy Newman - Harps and Angels 15 The Black Keys - Attack & Release 14 Ryan Adams And The Cardinals - Cardinology 13 Blitzen Trapper - Furr 12 Guns N' Roses - Chinese Democracy 11 Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes 10 Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend 09 Metallica - Death Magnetic 08 Beck - Modern Guilt 07 Coldplay - Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends 06 Santogold - Santogold 05 John Mellencamp - Life, Death, Love and Freedom 04 My Morning Jacket - Evil Urges 03 Lil Wayne - Tha Carter III 02 Bob Dylan - Tell Tale Signs:The Bootleg Series Vol. 8 01 TV on the Radio - Dear Science

100 best singles of 2008 100 will.i.am - "Yes We Can" 99 The Enemy - "You're Not Alone" 98 Teyana Taylor - "Google Me" 97 Sheryl Crow - "Now That You're Gone" 96 Little Joy - "Brand New Start" 95 Lucinda Williams - "Real Love" 94 Los Campesinos - "Miserabilia" 93 Madonna - "Candy Shop" 92 White Denim - "Shake Shake Shake" 91 O'Neal McKnight - "Check Your Coat" 90 Busta Rhymes - "Don't Touch Me (Throw da Water on 'Em)" 89 Old Crow Medicine Show - "Alabama High-Test" 88 Bon Iver - "Skinny Love" 87 Friendly Fires - "Jump in the Pool" 86 The Rumble Strips - "Cowboy" 85 M83 - "Kim & Jessie" 84 Lil Wayne - "A Milli" 83 Get 'Em Mamis - "Cold Summer" 82 Santogold & Diplo - "Icarus" 81 The Knux - "Cappuccino" 80 Mudcrutch - "Crystal River" 79 Kid Cudi - "Day 'N' Nite" 78 Love As Laughter - "Holy" 77 Hercules And Love Affair - "Blind" 76 The Roots - "Rising Down" 75 Flo Rida feat. T-Pain - "Low" 74 Ra Ra Riot - "Dying is Fine" 73 Ciarra feat. Ludacris - "High Price" 72 Sam Sparro - "Black and Gold" 71 Phantom Planet - "Do the Panic" 70 Busy Signal - "Tic Toc" 69 Missy Elliott - "Ching-A-Ling" 68 Fall Out Boy - "I Don't Care 67 M.I.A. - "Shells" 66 Jenny Lewis - "Acid Tongue" 65 The Virgins - "Rich Girls" 64 She and Him - "Why Do You Let Me Stay Here" 63 LCD Soundsystem - "Big Ideas" 62 The Gaslight Anthem - "The '59 Sound" 61 Robyn - "Cobrastyle" 60 Ne-Yo - "Closer" 59 Low vs Diamond - "Don't Forget Sister" 58 Jazmine Sullivan - "Bust Your Windows" 57 Charles Hamilton - "Brooklyn Girls" 56 The Hold Steady - "Constructive Summer" 55 Sigur Rós -  Gobbledigook" 54 Cat Power - "I Believe In You" 53 AC/DC - "Big Boi" 52 Lee Ann Womack - "Last Call" 51 Ashlee Simpson - "Rule Breaker" 50 Jackson Browne - "Time the Conqueror" 49 Jonas Brothers - "Video Girl" 48 John Mellencamp - "Troubled Land" 47 Janelle Monáe - "Many Moons" 46 Taylor Swift - "Fifteen" 45 Foals - "Cassius" 44 Panic At The Disco - "Nine in the Afternoon" 43 Erykah Badu - "The Healer" 42 The Raconteurs - "Salute Your Solution" 41 Duffy - "Warwick Avenue" 40 Kings Of Leon - "Sex On Fire" 39 The Academy Is... - "About a Girl" 38 Jamey Johnson - "High Cost of Living" 37 Bob Dylan - "Someday Baby" 36 Usher feat. Beyoncé and Lil Wayne - "Love in this Club, Pt. 2" 35 Kaiser Chiefs - "Addicted to Drugs" 34 Gnarls Barkley - "Run" 33 The Raveonettes - "Aly, Walk With Me" 32 N.E.R.D. - "Everyone Nose" 31 Conor Oberst - "Moab" 30 Weezer - "Pork and Beans" 29 Pink - "So What" 28 Kevin Rudolf feat. Lil Wayne - "Let It Rock" 27 The Ting Tings - "Shut Up and Let Me Go" 26 The Rapture - "No Sex for Ben" 25 Leona Lewis - "Bleeding Heart" 24 Lykke Li - "I'm Good, I"m Gone" 23 The Black Keys - "I Got Mine" 22 Jay-Z and T.I. - "Swagga Like Us" 21 Vampire Weekend - "One (Blake's Got a New Face)" 20 Katy Perry - "I Kissed a Girl" 19 Guns N' Roses - "Better" 18 Kid Rock - "All Summer Long" 17 The Killers - "Spaceman" 16 Young Jeezy - "My President" 15 Al Green - "Lay It Down" 14 The BPA feat. David Byrne and Dizzee Rascal - "Toe Jam" 13 Ryan Adams and the Cardinals - "Magick" 12 TV On The Radio - "Golden Age" 11 Rihanna - "Disturbia" 10 T.I. - "No Matter What" 09 Coldplay - "Viva la Vida" 08 My Morning Jacket - "I'm Amazed" 07 Estelle feat. Kanye West - "American Boy" 06 Beck - "Gamma Ray" 05 Lil Wayne - "Lollipop" 04 Blitzen Trapper - "Furr" 03 MGMT - "Time to Pretend" 02 Santogold - "LES Artistes" 01 Beyoncé - "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)"

Q top 50 albums 50 Dido - Safe Trip Home 49 Emmylou Harris - All I Intended To Be 48 Jenny Lewis - Acid Tongue 47 Randy Newman - Harps And Angels 46 The Verve - Forth 45 Jack Johnson Sleep Through Static 44 Black Kids - Partie Traumatic 43 Joan As Police Woman - To Survive 42 Liam Finn - I'll Be Lightning 41 Lindsey Buckingham - Gift Of Screws 40 My Morning Jacket - Evil Urges 39 Santogold - Santogold 38 John Mellencamp - Life Death Love & Freedom
37 Lykke Li - Youth Novels 36 R.E.M. - Accelerate 35 The Hold Steady - Stay Positive 34 Bon Iver - For Emma, Forever Ago 33 Hercules & Love Affair - Hercules & Love Affair 32 Oasis - Dig Out Your Soul 31 Black Mountain - In The Future 30 Portishead - Third 29 AC/DC - Black Ice 28 Paul Weller - Dreams 27 Neil Diamond - Home Before Dark 26 Conor Oberst - Conor Oberst 25 Metallica - Death Magnetic 24 The Last Shadow Puppets - The Age Of The Understatement 23 Beck - Modern Guilt 22 The Killers - Day & Age 21 Razorlight - Slipway Fires 20 The Gaslight Anthem - The '59 Sound 19 Goldfrapp - Seventh Tree 18 British Sea Power - Do You Like Rock Music? 17 Adele - 19 16 Hot Chip - Made In The Dark 15 Lil Wayne - Tha Carter III 14 Kaiser Chiefs - Off With Their Heads 13 MGMT - Oracular Spectacular 12 Keane - Perfect Symmetry 11 Sigur Rós - Med sud i eyrum vid spilum endalaust 10 Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!! 09 The Raconteurs - Consolers Of The Lonely 08 Elbow - The Seldom Seen Kid 07 TV On The Radio - Dear Science
06 Duffy - Rockferry 05 Glasvegas - Glasvegas 04 Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend 03 Coldplay - Viva La Vida Or Death And All His Friends 02 Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes 01 Kings Of Leon - Only By The Night

blender top 33 albums 2008 33 Hayes Carll - Trouble In Mind 32 Taylor Swift - Fearless 31 Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds - Dig, Lazarus, Dig!!! 30 Young Jeezy - The Recession 29 Raphael Saadiq - The Way I See It 28 Stephen Malkmus And The Jicks - Real Emotional Trash 27 Mariah Carey - E=MC² 26 Usher - Here I Stand 25 Santogold - Santogold 24 The Roots - Rising Down 23 The Cool Kids - The Bake Sale 22 Coldplay - Viva La Vida 21 Erykah Badu - New Amerykah: Pt. One (4th World War) 20 Wale - The Mixtape About Nothing 19 Katy Perry - One Of The Boys 18 Ponytail - Ice Cream Spiritual 17 Conor Oberst - Conor Oberst 16 Be Your Own Pet - Get Awkward 15 Bon Iver - For Emma, Forever Ago 14 Jenny Lewis - Acid Tongue 13 Al Green - Lay It Down 12 My Morning Jacket - Evil Urges 11 Death Cab For Cutie - Narrow Stairs 10 Fall Out Boy - Folie A Deux 09 Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend 08 Randy Newman - Harps and Angels 07 of Montreal - Skeletal Lamping 06 Robyn - Robyn 05 Hot Chip - Made In The Dark 04 Metallica - Death Magnetic 03 TV On The Radio - Dear Science 02 Girl Talk - Feed The Animals 01 Lil' Wayne - Tha Carter III

paste top 50 of 2008 50 TV On The Radio - Dear Science (Interscope) 49 Sandra McCracken - Red Balloon (Towhee) 48 REM - Accelerate (Warner Bros.) 47 Laura Marling - Alas, I Cannot Swim (Astralwerks) 46 Lykke Li - Youth Novels (LL) 45 M83 - Saturdays = Youth (Mute) 44 Kathleen Edwards - Asking For Flowers (Zoë) 43 Amanda Palmer - Who Killed Amanda Palmer (Roadrunner) 42 Thao Nguyen and the Get Down Stay Down - We Brave Bee Stings & All (KRS) 41 The Tallest Man On Earth - Shallow Grave (Gravitation) 40 Flight of the Conchords - Flight of the Conchords (Sub Pop) 39 The Dodos - Visiter (Frenchkiss) 38 Jamie Lidell - Jim (Warp) 37 Johnny Flynn & The Sussex Wit - A Larum (Lost Highway) 36 The Bridges - Limits of the Sky (Verve) 35 Colour Revolt - Plunder, Beg and Curse (Fat Possum) 34 Torche - Meanderthal (Hydra Head) 33 Santogold - Santogold (Downtown) 32 Silver Jews - Lookout Mountain, Lookout Sea (Drag City) 31 The Walkmen - You & Me (Gigantic) 30 I'm From Barcelona - Who Killed Harry Houdini? (Mute) 29 Lil Wayne - Tha Carter III (Cash Money/Universal) 28 MGMT - Oracular Spectacular (Columbia) 27 Liam Finn - I'll Be Lightning (Yep Roc) 26 Lee Ann Womack - Call Me Crazy (MCA Nashville) 25 Mugison - Mugiboogie (Ipecac) 24 Santogold & Diplo - Top Ranking (Mad Decent) 23 Mates of State - Re-Arrange Us (Barsuk) 22 No Age - Nouns (Sub Pop) 21 The Raveonettes - Lust Lust Lust (Vice) 20 Hot Chip - Made In The Dark (Astralwerks) 19 Gentleman Jesse and His Men - Introducing Gentleman Jesse and His Men (Douchemaster) 18 Death Cab
 for Cutie - Narrow Stairs (Atlantic) 17 Bonnie 'Prince' Billy - Lie Down In The Light (Drag City) 16 My Morning Jacket
 - Evil Urges (ATO) 15 Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - Dig!!! Lazarus Dig!!! (Mute) 14 Langhorne Slim - Langhorne Slim (Kemado) 13 Ida Maria - Fortress Round My Heart (Waterfall/RCA) 12 of Montreal - Skeletal Lamping (Polyvinyl) 11 The Hold Steady - Stay Positive (Vagrant) 10 Deerhunter - Microcastle (Kranky) 09 Lucinda Williams - Little Honey (Lost Highway) 08 Sun Kil Moon - April (Caldo Verde)07 Girl Talk - Feed the Animals (Illegal Art) 06 Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes (Sub Pop) 05 Okkervil River - The Stand Ins (Jagjaguwar) 04 Bon Iver - For Emma, Forever Ago (Jagjaguwar) 03 Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend (XL) 02 Sigur Rós - Med sud i eyrum vid spilum endalaust (XL) 01 She & Him - Volume One (Merge)

that's a lot. how do they listen to music? to a whole lot of new music?

what's in your list?

Currently listening to: president of what? - death cab for cutie

If you struggle with defining yourself without referencing things from the recent past that seemingly become less and less familiar, hypertangible and more and more a mere patchwork of ideals, faint visions, seconds long episodes, you are probably just as stuck as me. Or we're roomies in this supposed warp zone that fucked up for some reason.

I just wish life had a little more variation, a little more adventurous. Really.

What is there to chronicle about eh? Well, something really hurts. I think I need to go see a doctor.

I hate missing breakfast. I can go the high fashion model way for the rest of the day sans bulimia but I need to take something in the morning.

I love my current mix in the phone- Death Cab for Cutie, Futureheads, Ryan Adams, Kills, Cold War Kids, Bob Dylan, Fleet Foxes, Bjork, Kooks. A little bit of Keane, Blondie, Clash. I like how ancient, semi classics, overrated, universally bashed, scene and semi ignored do make a wonderful randomness. I love the word permutation and imagine the possibilities if I can have my entire iTunes in an iPod or some terrabyte portable player. If my walkman scrobbles then my last.fm will truly be representing my music.

I love Radiohead but since my brother and I share the same PC, and damn, he's such a Radiohead freak, I have a thousand or so Radiohead scrobbles, and hundreds of Garbage ones.

It's ego. The romance must be very self-centered they hid their yo's and io's and j's and incorporated them into their verb conjugations. In that way, it wouldn't be too evident that all we talk or write about is ourselves. This very entry is an example- I wish, I hate, I love, I love... It wouldn't look as egomaniacal say, in Catalan. But then again, second and third person forms in singular and plural can also be implied through the inflections. And it'd be obvious if we're Barcelona natives or something. What's the point? Well, let's just say I'd rather come up with silliness than go to sleep, because I'm not sleepy at all. Ademas, I don't blog as often, as I said when I say since when, or it's been a while, it's been a LONG while. Like almost a decade ago. I wanna chronice my lack of life, at least enjoy the chronicling.

That word I first encounter in the Old Testament, Mga Kronika in the vernacular translation, bland as heaven! Try Numbers! Post Moses Torah, really zZz material.

"I'm no fucking Buddhist, but this is enlightenment!" Bjork, I really love Homogenic. It's up there with whatever's on top.

Highlights: Half the tracklist is beyond superb. That means the lowlights are better than 97% of what's currently on the radio, hell, make that 99%, big difference. It's been 12 years since Homogenic, and it hasn't aged at all. It's even hard to pick up a favorite track. Before it was between Hunter, Bachelorette and Joga, now include All Is Full of Love. It's silly, she talks about nothing other than love, and yet, and yet, and yet. The point is, HERE.

10/10

Currently listening to: alarm call - bjork
Currently reading: big sur

I want to go somewhere. And you can help me satisfy this want. Go with me. I don't exactly know how to explain it in an organized way. Here are the stuff.

1) When: ASAP until the 25th of February, but you have to let me know before the week ends (a month before the 25th)

2) Where:

3 days - 2 nights Boracay / Bangkok / Bali

8 days -7 nights Orlando / anywhere in Spain, Australia, South Africa, Mexico, New Zealand only.

mas mahaba kasi mas mahal biyahe/sayang. I dun wanna go to Bora. Been to Bangkok already, and itatrap lang nila tayo sa airport pag nagkataon

3) ??? I got this "free"/prepaid accommodation thing to several hotels around the world, which I can use for a number of times. For this certain period though those are the only available places. Lemme stress that wherever we'd end up it is gonna be nice and all, not the backpacker type. If we did this early enough we'll have more time deciding on a hotel. I will be giving you more detailed info since as of now there are tons of options. I will definitely discuss the options with you before making reservations so dun worry.

4) I'm not exactly being generous here because in return I will be asking you to pay for my fare. Before you scream scam or stuff like that, you do not have to pay anything BEFORE we are certain that we already have a destination and a place to stay.

I wanted to say steps 1-n but let's use letters instead

a) i- blog inviting / begging / requesting / pleading and give info

b) you- inform me that you are interested

c) we- agree on a destination

d) i- give the travel group a call saying we wanna go to x

e) they- give me available accommodation options in x location

f) we- discuss them and come up with a choice

g) i- handle the hotel issues- booking, extra hotel charges etc

h) we try to get cheap/best plane fees (the travel group can help some for free if you're as clueless as me)

i) you- treat me with a round trip plane ticket (wee!)

And another thing: this time the room we can grab regardless of destination/hotel is good for 2 only (my folks were gonna use it but stuff happened, no big deal). So that means you, and me only.

I don't bite. I make a nice travel buddy, I guess. I can take your touristy photos for your friendster/multiply/fb/whatever. I can go on walking forever if that's what pleases you. I can go separately if you wish to wander alone. I'm thrifty. I can wait forever if you want to shop. I can listen if you wanna talk. I can shut up if you want silence. I don't bring a lot of stuff (meaning, you can bring home a little more pasalubong without worrying about exceeding the baggage limit). I speak Filipino, Tagalog, Spanish, Italian, Mandarin, Japanese, Bahasa, English, Yiddish, Esperanto. I tried Greek and Russian and Elvish, but failed miserably.

Ignore the polyglot part. Everything else is true.

I tried the online booking thingy, booking the soonest available thing:

Cebu Pacific

MNL-Bora 2k+/ea one way

MNL-Bangkok 7k roundtrip/ea

Madrid is really expensive, cos you go British or Dutch 400+ Euros . We can try those cheap planes if you're more adventurous. These websites, they speak in High Jetsetter, I do not understand a thing.

You don't really have to be 100% sure. If you're open about the idea, lemme know, we'll consult stuff and start from there. I wanna know approximate air fare rates sana so you can have an idea how much, more or less, it'd cost you, but I really have no clue atm.

Passport, prepare na, renew na. Travel group offers assistance if necessary for visa applications and such.